I have just about had it up to HERE with the excuse “We’ve decided to go with a more qualified candidate.” I’ve gotten a few of them. My boyfriend probably has more than he’s told me about. I bring him up because well… he brings the whole situation up this time. I’ve probably talked about this before. And if I haven’t you’ve sure as hell have heard the argument before. You can’t get experience with out a job, can’t get the job without the experience. Well I’m tired of it. Soooooooo tired. I didn’t put myself thousands of dollars in debt to not find a way to pay for it. Anyway. Back to the boy friend thing and why I am ranting today. A couple weeks ago, he applied to a job. They called him for an interview, seemed to like him, said they’d let him know within the week if he’d be hired. A week went by, he sent an email, no response. A few days go by, he calls, no answer. Then he gets a call from a different place, saying that the previous referred him and they’d like an interview. He feels great about the interview then two days later gets a call for a second interview. From my point, sweeeeet, He’s got this. I mean, they called him, they interviewed him twice. He gets a call from them today saying that they went with someone with more advanced skill. Why go through all the trouble!! They did say they’d keep his name on file and seems to be promising for the future (well… from what I’ve read from the boyfriend’s texts and pure optimism on my part). I’m just so angry at the world about this. I am angry because my boyfriend who probably has more experience in his field than I do my own got turned down for something because he had less experience. It’s almost heart breaking, and leaves me with little hope.
So what did I do when I got home today? I started writing. I wrote some stuff that was in my head for some stories. I found a job to apply for that I know I will get turned down for. Then I started looking for another job to apply for. And I found one. One that seems promising and looks really cool. I mean, if I got hired I wouldn’t be called an employee. I’d be called a fellow arsonist. Which sounds crazy and not good, but it’s actually a writing thing so that’s cool. But I have some problems with it.
First, they want a “compelling cover letter.” What the hell does that mean and how do I get one. Haha, just kidding. But really.
Second, It’s near my hometown. That’s nearly two hours away. Which means, if he so-chooses to come along, I’d be uprooting my boyfriend from a place we’ve called home for a little over a year. Which also means all the friends I’ve gathered over that time will then be far away. I’m beginning to make this place my own, something I’ve come to love. So do I want to change everything I’ve been working to create?
Third, the Boyfriend’s parents want me to move to his hometown (four hours away). My parents want me to move there. It would seem unfair to the boyfriend and his family. It’s something that is a hard decision to make. I don’t want to seem like I am favoring my own family. But in all honesty, it’s my future I have to put first. It’s not because I wouldn’t be willing to locate there if needed, but because I need to locate where I find my passion.
But then there’s good stuff.
First, I’d be writing. That would be super cool.
Second, It’s near my hometown. Everything I’ve grown up loving. Everything I know. All the people I left behind a year ago. All the comfort.
Third. Arsonist just sounds cool.
Have I ever mentioned that I have a terrible habit of applying for a job and imagining life as I had already been offered the position? I do this at work constantly. I apply for a position, the next day at my dull job I fantasize about every little detail of the new job. What will I wear? Who will I meet? How should I get there? Do I need to commute by train? Where would I live? And if you have no idea what I’m talking about, read my list of pros and cons of a job I HAVENT EVEN APPLIED TO YET. My goal this weekend is to figure out what “compelling cover letter” means to me and write it. The job is open until October First and that is like five sleeps away. But that’s okay because I’ll get this job and be awesome and have the knowledge to work and go where ever I want.
Well. That went from Angry to Uplifting pretty fast.